The thought is a burden
If only the heart won't give up
I would fly to the open sky;
I drank some tea.
I dreamt of the life
My wife in my arms
My baby on my shoulder;
The dark night won't go,
The music shoothens,
I drank some tea.
My mother in my lap
I sang the lullaby
Times back she sang to me
I laid in her lap;
She closes her eyes
Breathing the tea,
The tea is sweet, I drank some more.
If only the body turns to soil
The heart won't give up;
Time is the lion, the ant is small
But, the ant knows to find the path;
The glimpse of the woman
She touches the heart
The heart knows the path;
I drank some tea.
I know the prairie beyond the sand land
And I know the dream lies there.
I will drink more tea,
Until I lay my step on the green grass.
November 02, 2013
Posted by Blindmemoirs
Will it be wrong to assume that we as a social being do no more have the pre-requisite to be called so ? This is one of those persistent questions that I have been asking myself since the last few years. My tendency of an affirmative answer has been too high, and it will be too lame to ignore it. Yet, my ego as a human doesn't approve of accepting it either.
Yesterday, there came in "THE HINDU", and minor girl has allegedly accused her father and brother for sexually abusing her since last 4 years. She claimed her mother knew but, didn't do anything to stop it. Day before that, there was in the news, a juvenile convicted of rape and murder of a 6 years old girl has threatened to do the same to the deceased child's sister after being freed from detention home. If I have to recall all those incidents that have been coming up in the last month, forget about the year, if I have to take the whole day, I still doubt I can compile all of them. There is no doubt in calling INDIA as a rape country.
Even as the country is heading towards a better global economic status with a better image as a responsible nation, it seems that the social structure and values are declining at a much alarming rate. There are many issues to talk about in this subject. I will keep my limit to SEXUAL ABUSE TOWARDS THE WOMAN in particular in this note.
Every now and then, there is hardly any day that goes without reporting such cases involving sexual exploitation on woman. Infact, this days, even a 9 month old baby girl has not been spared. Gang rape rape on the false promise of marriage, brother raping the sister, drunk father raping the daughter. It is just not the rape, the accused wouldn't spare the lives of the victims, even if it is a 9 month old baby. How on earth can we think of cutting a small child into pieces and disposing it in the public toilet. It is way too inhuman to even think about it.
With development and increasing awareness should come a better social structure and sense of social responsibilities in each of the citizen of the country. But, if we look into the rising trend of each and every section of the society, the gains that we have made is far less than the losses we have had.
As many of us believe that education is the solution to most of the social evils and to our development. I still believe the same. But, somewhere something is wrong which most of us are not able to identify. Taking a peek into the 2011 Census, it states that India has an over-all literacy rate of 74.04 % and is still increasing at the rate of 9.2 %. But, my concern is, isn't it suppose to mean that our society must have been more civilised. Ofcourse, some will argue that literacy doesn't mean that people will stop doing crimes. It is also viable to argue that there are many other factors too. In that case, my question is if education is not supposed to educate then, what it is supposed to do and if it is educating then, why are we not having a more sensible and considerate society. Instead, we are losing more and more of our human values and developing more of the animal instincts. Even animals have developed and have become more social.
The question is, do the numbers projects the reality? Is something not wrong with the way it has been projected ? If the census is right, then what does literacy means, only read and write ? If it is then, is our education system good enough for the changing trend? Are we not supposed to teach the importance of moral values. Down the line, what I genuinely feel is that, there is a big loophole in our education system. In schools, we are taught about books which teaches us to read and write, we are taught about stories of great people, but teachers as well as the students merely take them as lessons to be learnt by-heart not by heart. The way education is preached and the way education is perceived seems to be totally going towards a quantitative production rather than imparting qualitative values. Even the teachers or the so called educators are not fit enough to be called someone who is guiding the students. Their accountability has been so deeply affected by the selfish drives. Would I be wrong to say that "Universities today are producing more and more highly trained barbarians rather than developing educated intellectuals."
When I was a kid, apart from my school books, the most important lesson came from my parents. Infact, this story is just not about me, it is for most of us also. But, the changing trend is not so friendly. The kids are more detached from their parents. There are nothing much accountable values that parents these days teach their kids. Even the coming generation of parents are doubtful to be able enough to give guidance to their own children.
There is definitely a need to change our whole education system. May it be the content of education, the educators and most importantly the concept of education. It's just not the kids or the students to be taught, adults and the people leading the country need to be educated with a new system with more values. Sometimes, it's really funny to watch bunches of illiterate mindless organisms fighting in the house of the country's highest institution. I feel ashamed of myself to have let these people led the country.
Ensuring more stringent punishment and more efficient law and order is another way to curb this rising level of indifference towards woman. But, that will be only a temporary measure. That is in a way suppressing the evil not overthrowing it from its roots. The only way to do away with this evil is education, not just quantitative education, but with more values. For this, all of us, each and every section of the society is responsible. A collective effort can only bring an effective change.
If we fail to understand this, the whole society will collapse. There will be no value for relationship. Woman will live in constant fear. The whole cause of the country will suffer irreparably. We have already lost our lustre to the world. It is a shame for all of us.
Note : My only request to all is that we are born as a human, let us live like responsible humans and live like one too.
3rd MARCH, 2012.
'7 years I have waited for this moment. 7 years I have not had a sleep without you in my dreams. 7 years I have not missed celebrating your birthday even without you around.'
After 7 long years, I'm meeting her tonight.
'Miss' as I always call her, fate had taken her away from me 7 years back for reasons that I still don't know. And now, the same fate has brought us back together. 7 years from back I have given her my heart, and tonight I just want her to know that she still has my heart.
Dressed in my best suit, and with the best of my self, here, at this table No. 5 of her favourite hangout where we used to sit then, I'm waiting for the clock to tick 7 O'Clock. The feeling is too special and I wish I could make the time still for some more time. But, then, having her sitting right beside me has been my only wish for the last 7 years. Only I know how I wish the clock to tick 7.
The clock ticks 7 and I turn my head towards the way from where she would be coming. I know it's dramatic, but I just can't help it, I'm seeing her after such a long 7 years & I had missed the way she used to be. I kept gazing towards the way until the waiter broke my attention. When I looked at the watch, it was 10 minutes past 7. I told the waiter to come over after 10 minutes and I again looked at the direction. I have this feeling that any moment she would be walking in from the direction in a red dress. I kept looking.
'Sir, it's the time to close now'. When he broke my attention, I found myself gazing in the direction. It was 11 now and there were no diners around. The candle on the table still remained unlit. I took out my wallet, look at her passport sized photograph which we had exchanged 7 years back, slipped out a 500 note and tipped the waiter. I slipped my hand in the right pocket of the blazer and took out the 'Ring'. It was shinning bright in the box as I opened it. I lit the red candle on the table, filled the glass with the red wine, had a sip and smiled at myself. I have no-one sitting beside me to talk to and nothing else to think about. I told myself, 7 years, may be another 7 years more.
I thought of calling her, but then, I stopped myself for I think I was not sure of anything now. I was left with the same feeling that took away my sleep for years that I have 7 years back. I couldn't think, I couldn't sleep. I was once again left with the same old broken heart.
Late at night, I got a call from her number. But, it was a different person on the line.
'Hello, Is this Mr. Kumar ?,This is calling from Galaxy Hospital.We found your name in the last dialed list in this cell phone.So, we thought it will be good to call you first.'
And he continued....I was left speechless.
107 DAYS LATER
Early Monday morning, she was checking her facebook page. Many have wished her birthday. Sipping a cup of coffee, she kept looking at the page. She checked all the messages, but still she rechecked them again. Her eyes seemed to be looking for a message from someone. To her disappointment, she didn't find any. Inside, she felt some kind of strange feeling, a feeling of disappointment and disapproval for the person who used to tell her 'I love you a lot and will always be there for you'.
She thought he could have atleast called once and ask how she was, where she was and why she didn't come that night. And when she called to explain, his number couldn't not be reached. Thoughts occupied her and she no more knows where he was. She thought still, he could ask atleast once about my health. She was sure that he would have known about what happened to her. She thought he might have been angry and moved on with his life.
The doorbell rings. It was courier boy. He handed over a parcel wrapped in a white brown paper.
She was not expecting anything and felt a little surprised. She checked the address to see if it has been wrongly delivered. No, it was her address. Then, she checked the back side of the cover and she was filled with an unknown feeling to find the name 'Mr. Kumar'. She was filled with a strange mixed feeling of happiness and surprise.
She opened it carefully and as he always does, she found a neat paper-made-box of blue. Inside it, there was a black case and a blue envelope. She opened the box and there was a diamond ring shinning bright and her heart leaps all of a sudden and she bursts into silent tears of unexpected joy and happiness. She thought he is back in her life.
She then take the blue envelope in her hand and watch the details of it. It was of the same kind that he had given her 7 years back at the time he had told her that he truly loved her. She opened it slowly and took out the note inside. It carried the same fragrance and it took her to the moment when they met for the first time. Tears rolled down unprecedently.
The note reads..
'My Dear Miss,I still remember the moment I saw you the first time. You were in your pink shoes and your hair were silky and fluttering around your face with the soft wind that passed through your way.You know my heart leaped to heaven. Your eyes shine throughout my life. And from that moment I have never let you go away from my life. It was 'Love at the first sight'. How much special I have felt walking with you on my side.I felt like, I could win this world.I have always wanted to make you feel special for you are really special. I have been waiting for this day, to give you the best gift that I could ever give you in my life. You have always loved to be the birthday girl, and even when you were not with me for 7 years, I have never missed to celebrate your birthday, but I never felt satisfied with anything that I have given you.It's your birthday today.... my Miss.Happy birthday....sweetheart.This was my last wish before I took this step. and I have planned it well to make sure, it gets delivered to you on this day only.'Please, never let the ring away from your fingers. I wish I could have asked your hand to hold mine.'I'm sorry that I couldn't come to you anymore. But, the 'Ring' is meant for you only and I had wanted to propose you to marry me on that night. I waited for you. This Ring will look elegant in your fingers only.I am really happy to have you in my life and now I feel much happier to be your heart. I have always wished to be your heart like the way you were my sweetheart. GOD is too kind upon me to have given me this opportunity.You remember the time when I told you I have given you my heart. I'm happy that I kept my words. I gave you my heart. And I'm happy that I won't miss you anymore as I'm your heart now. What else would I wish more than this.Thank you miss, you have defined the reason for my life. I'll always be with you now for the rest of the time and will always be your sweetheart. Keep it safe.I know you will ask why I did this. And I also know that you know the reason too.Now, don't be like a kid, wipe your tears, wear a big smile that I have always admired and let's celebrate your birthday. For the first time, we are celebrating your birthday together.Live Life Abundantly. And please for my sake put on the red dress today.I love you sweetheart.Yours OnlyMr. Kumar '
She couldn't stop the tears anymore.....